It started as the desire to complete just one 10K to say I did it. A few weeks into my training, a relationship came to an end and I lost my job. Those training runs quickly became my best friends as I sorted through the losses and uncertainty. Now, more than 4 years, training for 5 half marathons, and one knee surgery later, the challenges I have taken on in running have helped me understand that I can take on, and conquer, whatever lies in my path ahead.

Wednesday, December 12, 2007

Roadblocks and Disappointments

Wed., Dec. 12

My half marathon was last Sat. On that day, I was finishing up day 6 on crutches in a knee brace. It happened when a mile into an easy TM run, my knee wouldn't stop being twingy and the back of my knee was cramping up. I stopped, I stretched a bit, I took a step and POP! I crumpled and could barely get my self to the front of the gym to ask for ice and cry like a baby.

Still waiting on an MRI and follow up with dr. - it initially looked like an MCL tear with possible miniscus damage. Pretty good news considering - MCL heals without surgery, miniscus requires a scope at most.

Today, the physical therapist did an evaluation and seemed convinced that the ACL is the real problem. Not such good news. So now I wait, frustrated at all of my life being on hold, wondering how long the road back to running is going to be.

It sucks. It's depressing to only be able to sleep on my back with my leg propped up or to wake up in the morning and realize I've got to swing out gingerly, figure out what I can wear that I can strap on my big old brace with, test what my knee will do for the day.

Thankfully, while I wait, I at least was cleared today to do some stretch and strength exercises for my legs, stationery bike (10 min, 0 resistance), and whatever upper body work I can do with my knee being stable.

This doesn't fit in the plan and it makes me mad. I can't even discuss if a May marathon is a possibility til I get MRI results.